From Here

I know I normally stick with sarcasm, so this post may come across as a bit strange to some of you. This particular post is for my future husband. Lately I've been questioning God about where my life is headed, or rather, what hasn't happened in it yet. Yes, this is personal. Yes, it might be something better kept to myself. It may sound funny or pathetic, and it may never come to pass at all. I don't know.
I mess up and get distracted from my walk with God so easily it scares me. My heart wanders, and I pray that God will keep it bound to Him. Everything has a time and a season. Right now, I am in a season that requires me to be single and focused on what I am doing. I have to finish it out and accomplish the tasks He has set before me.
We've all heard the saying that life is what happens while we're making plans. True that. There's work to be done, right here, right now. I would say that the following is a dream, a prayer, and a promise to hold on to in this present season.

I'm praying for you. I can't wait for the day when God brings us together. Right now it feels so much like that day is a very long time off. I've been waiting for so long. Sometimes it's extremely lonely. But I know that it will be worth it 1000 times over. I don't know why He is having us wait, why our time is not yet come, but I trust Him completely. Somehow, this time of learning to wait on Him while waiting for you is making our story that much sweeter. I wouldn't trade these lessons or this season for anything. Because every time I want to cry, every time I wonder where you are, I learn to give it to Christ and to lean on Him even more to fill my heart. There's a song by Big Daddy Weave called "From Here." It just makes me look forward to our wedding day, when we get to dance together for the first time. I know as I write this that it is going to be a beautiful day.

I know God is using this time to prepare us for something in the future. I can't help but be blown away by His magnificent ways. I am so humbled by His grace and mercy, by His unfathomable wisdom and love. I'm waiting for you because I love you already and I don't want to do anything to hurt you. I'm holding you in my heart. I wish I could put into words how much God has changed my heart and how grateful I am to a God who cared enough for me to save me from the path I was on, to call me to serve Him, to put a new song in my heart, to teach me to wait on His perfect timing. I am altogether unworthy, but altogether grateful and awed to be His daughter. I am so thankful that He has chosen you and I to serve Him together. That He kept me from other choices. That He is keeping us for each other, for Him.

That He called me to be a nurse and to go to school and that I am able to follow this path that I never would have seen a few years ago because I was so set on accomplishing my own desires and dreams that I would have settled for 2nd best instead of waiting on my Lord. That He kept me from that and that I am here tonight writing this letter to you, even though we may not meet for another 20 years. I am here waiting for you instead of being somewhere married to the wrong person and living a different life. PRAISE GOD.